I Must Learn Self Control

I must learn self control. I must learn self control. I must learn self control.
I walked in to class. Her eyes where locked on me. My eyes where looking down. I could literally feel her glare as I went abt my daily routine. Coat off. Homework out. Bookbag on back of chair.
I continued to look down and pretended to be busy. As if making sure pencils were lined up straight was the most difficult chore. My fellow classmates chattered about, most paying me no mind.
They fluttered past me. One by one and put there homework in the box. Two by two and then in groups. Nows my chance. I went up with a large group in hurriedly threw my homework in a pile with the rest.
She immediately picked mine up. She thumbed through it and a slight smirk of satisfaction spread across her face.
"I hope u learned something from this", she said. I simply nodded. Head down. Hand slightly cramped. I walked back to my seat. But had I learned anything?
I had been order to write a punishment "I must learn self control" 100 times. As a second grade child this was a difficult task. No doubt I've learned the spelling of the words. And my formation of the letters I,m,u,s,t,l,e,a,r,n,f,c,o, and n had improved. But almost 2 decades later....
Not much has changed. I'm a grown woman. Who suffers from ranDUMB outbursts I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I often act on impulse and think abt the consequences later I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I say wat da fuk most r scared 2 say I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I am a shop a holic I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I have a shoe fetish I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I have a terrible temper problem I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I've spent years in anger management I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
Today I lost control .... I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I hurt ppl I love..... I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL

I MUST. I MUST. I MUST.

Self-control: the ability to control one's emotions, behaviors, and desires....

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