Take The Money And Run!!!

I was told the sooner I leave the better. To take an early tax refund and go. To take the money and run...and I smirked to myself. Surely I can not be that bad. What on Earth could I have done to so wrong? How could little ole me cause so much harm?

Given the chance could you pay someone to walk out of your life? Or could you be paid to leave someone's life? How much is too much? Is it too little too late? How much is your peace of mind worth?

If I were ever offered total peace and happiness I would most definitely take the money and run!!!! Sometimes you just need a clean slate, a fresh start.

If you could do it all over again, how would you do it?

xoxo
Kisses from your misses :-*
(Yeah that is)

If I Knew Better.....

"If you knew better, you'd do better."

I've heard this saying over and over through out my life. While at the hair salon with my mother or ear hustling in adult conversations, this phrase was often spoken. Often followed by a head nod or an emphatic "uum hmm girl".

Now that I am adult adult I wonder if I know better and is there any possible way I could do better. Often times I put myself in positions that are almost impossible to get out of or at the very least uncomfortable. What could I possibly need to know to avoid these types of situations?

I need to know my limits. What I can and can't do and what is too strenuous for me.

I need to know who my real friends are. Not just people who will laugh and smile with you, but people who are there to teach you and learn from you in return.

I need to know who I can depend on. Who will be there when it matters most. And its not enough to just be there, but to be there doing what you need them to do.

And lastly I need to know how to adapt. Things are almost never what they seem and hearts, rules, and promises were all meant to be broken. Adapt to whatever changes may come my way and always have some sort of back up plan.

When your back is to the wall you have nowhere else to go but up. I WILL LEARN HOW TO CLIMB!!!

I know better. I'll do better.

No Crystal Stair

"Well son, Life for me ain't been no crystal stair"

As I spend my typical Saturday night at work I sit, think and reflect on how my life simply isn't easy. Not that I'm complaining. I'm actually proud to work as hard as I do. My son's every need is met and I put all my time and energy into making sure of that. "By any means necessary"

I'm starting to think that maybe its high time a learn to live a little. I mean really live. Not jus partying and bullshiting, but to work towards owning something sustainable or really doing something that matters.

It jus sux that u can live and die in the world and trillions of ppl will never even know you existed. I wanna be something major, touch people, and make changes.

Please stand by.

XOXO,
Kisses from ur misses
(Yeah that is)

You Can Have Your Cake and Eat It Too

There's a woman in my life that I love dearly. She has given me all the tools I need to succeed in life. And while she may not have always lead by example, I appreciate her showing me her flaws. This woman is my mother Rae-chelle Justice.
From the time I could remember I knew my mother loved me. My mother tried her best to provide for her children and what she couldn't do financially she made sure to do emotionally.
I remember tea parties, and picnics on the livingroom floor with my mother. I remember baking lemon cakes, cookie bars, and strawberry tarts with my mother. I remember walks n the park and trips to new york with my mother. But most importantly I remember my mother's strength.
When faced with adversity my mother always prevailed. As a young woman, my mother balanced work and family life and although it wasn't perfect, it was perfect for us. For years I never knew we were poor. My mother was rich with love for her children, a smart woman and full of ideas.
I remember laughing and saying to my younger brothers that mom used to give us cake for breakfast. When I asked my mother why is when I truly found a new respect for the woman who gave me life.
My mother gave us cake for breakfast because with 5 kids and three eggs she couldn't possibly feed us all. So she used those eggs and baked a cake.
That's day I learned everything I would ever need to kno in life.
1. Things aren't always what they appear to be. It may look as if there is no way but u can make ur own way.
2. Where there's a will there is a way. If u want it bad enough u can always get it.
3. Make the most out of a bad situation. Find a way 2 find the light at the end of the tunnel.
4. Smile through your pain. You already know it hurts. Why continue to suffer.
5. You can have your cake and eat it too. That's what cake is for...to be consumed.
I know that when my mom opened the fridge that day it probably broke her heart but seeing the smile on our faces definitely put it back together.
My mother left this earth December 25, 2008. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. Not a day goes by that I don't use the things she taught me. I admire her strength, courage and wisdom. I cry and smile when I think of my mother...and everytime I eat cake.

xoxo,
Kisses from your misses
(Yeah that is)

Unfinished

It seems we grew closer n closer by the day. The ability 2 finish each other's sentences grew keener and keener. You used 2 always tease me and say I could have a whole conversation with u without u even speaking.
I remeber the day we practiced this.

Me: Punk
You: yessss
Me: I wanna go home
You: well go
Me: suck my ass
You: now guess wat I would say
Me: uuumm Suck ur dick
You: exactly
Me: eat my ass
Me: no thank u *your voice*

We laughed n did this countless times ova n ova. I never knew this was practice.

Practice for 2day. For the 1st day I can't have u answer a single question I ask. For the 1st day u can't amswer me back. For the 1st day I have 2 imagine ur voice saying things that I prob really dnt wanna hear.

U came n2 my life and simply took over me. My smiles got brighter. My laughs got longer. I'm happy 2 say we laughed everyday 2gether. Even when u made me cry...five minutes later u made me laugh.

I'm feeling like we was jus getn started. That things were finally goin the way we wanted it. We jus picked out shower curtains n towels. #JetLife til our nx Life

I really dnt kno wat I'm tryna say. We already said it all. I love u n u love me. Wat drake said right, We want this shit 4eva

Wat I really wanna say is u inspired me. U helped me start my business u encouraged me 2 go forward. U never held my hand but never held me back.  I remeber wat u told me Thursday...u gon always b here 4 me cuz I was always there for u.

I kno ur here. I kno ur never leave. I kno I'll neva let u go. U kno I'll neva let u go. I told countless times before. I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU!!!

I LOVE US

I would give anything 2 see jus how big we really could have been. Plz stay tuned Punk.

This story is UNFINISHED...

I Must Learn Self Control

I must learn self control. I must learn self control. I must learn self control.
I walked in to class. Her eyes where locked on me. My eyes where looking down. I could literally feel her glare as I went abt my daily routine. Coat off. Homework out. Bookbag on back of chair.
I continued to look down and pretended to be busy. As if making sure pencils were lined up straight was the most difficult chore. My fellow classmates chattered about, most paying me no mind.
They fluttered past me. One by one and put there homework in the box. Two by two and then in groups. Nows my chance. I went up with a large group in hurriedly threw my homework in a pile with the rest.
She immediately picked mine up. She thumbed through it and a slight smirk of satisfaction spread across her face.
"I hope u learned something from this", she said. I simply nodded. Head down. Hand slightly cramped. I walked back to my seat. But had I learned anything?
I had been order to write a punishment "I must learn self control" 100 times. As a second grade child this was a difficult task. No doubt I've learned the spelling of the words. And my formation of the letters I,m,u,s,t,l,e,a,r,n,f,c,o, and n had improved. But almost 2 decades later....
Not much has changed. I'm a grown woman. Who suffers from ranDUMB outbursts I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I often act on impulse and think abt the consequences later I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I say wat da fuk most r scared 2 say I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I am a shop a holic I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I have a shoe fetish I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I have a terrible temper problem I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I've spent years in anger management I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
Today I lost control .... I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I hurt ppl I love..... I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL
I MUST LEARN SELF CONTROL

I MUST. I MUST. I MUST.

Self-control: the ability to control one's emotions, behaviors, and desires....

xoxo- kisses from ur misses
YEAH
(that is)

DON'T COME FOR ME

DON'T COME FOR ME

I wonder y u watch me
is it bcuz u not me
tryna break up the monotony
of that thing u call ur life.
this shit is like monopoly
free parking community property
i rolled them dice so properly
u not gone catch or stop me
my advice i hope u take it
u not gone fukn make it

Cant edit my life so I dnt edit my blog. Typos, incorrect spelling, who cares.
DON'T COME FOR ME

Depth Perception Part 2

Didn't really go that deep in part 1
Wanna kno more? Keep reading.

They call me Gina. My momma gave me that name. Who, what, when, where, why and how? I really don't kno. I jus go wit it.

I'm the third oldest of ten children and I love my siblings with all my heart. Although they aggravate me, they really mean the world to me. Besides, WE ALL WE GOT.

My mother raised us as a single parent. I owe everything I am to her. Had I not seen her persevere through it all I might have given up a long time ago. My mother passed December 25, 2008. If you have a calender you may have realized thats Christmas Day. Yeah kinda sucks.

I'm a very busy girl. Barely have time to even breathe. But somehow I make time for my family and friends. So thankful for smartphones. They make the world go round.

I have produced 1 offspring and most likely that will be all. He's just enough and I kinda like wat we got goin. Don't kno if I can share my love but I NEVER say NEVER. Shit happens. But I'm wise. Kids cost. Condoms are cheaper and swallowing is free. (yeah i jus said dat)

Please stay tuned for more ranDUMB outbursts.... I say wat I feel

xoxo- kisses from your misses
YEAH
(that is) *wink*

Depth Perception

Realizing that this blog is titled *ahem* MY LIFE ACCORDING TO ME. We r now 2 posts in (for those of u keepn score) n I have actually told u very little abt me. All u kno is I've started a blog n there is a slight chance that I'm bipolar. Since the whole idea is 2 get 2 kno me better welp here goes....
I'm normal I suppose. Or jus not that weird. I kinda straddle the line. I think outside the box but can also manage 2 fit n the box, or circle, or wateva ppl wanna b in these days. I'm simply me...
A bit vague I kno but I'm jus warming up 2 this. Am I really 2 describe myself or jus sum up my titles?
I'm a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and 2 some an enemy. Oh n I'm also a blogger lol.

xoxo- kisses from ur misses
YEAH
(that is) *wink*

Crazy? Maybe

I'm starting to think I'm crazy. Like Maybe.

But seriously I think I'm goin bonkers. I'll b perfectly fine 1 minute n then som1 does somthn completely stupid and it enrages me.... then I'm back to normal. And no I'm not bipolar. I googled the symptoms.

Anxiously awaiting the end of my day cuz I jus cant take today anymore. Will try again 2moro.

xoxo- kisses from ur misses
YEAH
(that is) *wink*

UMmmmm Day1

Tried blogging b4 but then i kinda 4got abt it. I'm gonna get started again. Y not I'm interesting enough. or atleast I think.
If ur reading this THANK YOU. twas not done in vain but 4 u and I to read and laugh or wateva #nshit like dat
at work simply bored but working none the less. I swear I'm more interesting on twitter and facebook but I'll get the hang of it.

Until nx time

xoxo- Kisses From ur MRS.
YEAH
(that is) *wink*